November 8th

3 mile run

Dead Lift: 315x3
                  335x3
                  345x3
                  355x3
                  365x3

Pullups: two pyramids to 5...50 total
Chinups: two pyramids to 5...50 total

100 total pulls.

Pushup workout:
    2 min max: 60
    1 min max: 32
    50, 40, 30, 20, 10



I literally got HIGH in the gym today.  It felt so good.  I was stressed out before I went in, didn't really feel like taking the time to work out...especially run on the god-forsaken treadmill.  I was afraid of getting hurt doing the heavy DLs, I was bitching at myself on the pullups about how long they were taking and then it hit me.  It didn't matter.  I didn't need to be psyched to do something, I didn't need to feel inspired, I just had to do it...this feeling would eventually subside and would be replaced by something else.  I turned "it doesn't always get worse," to "it always gets better" and I learned that it's not how you feel walking into the gym that matters but how you walk out of it...push through the hard times to get to the high times because it is those moments we live for.  I wrote this on the front of my journal:

"Pain is manageable, shame is not."

Hooyah.